uh oh..

its been a week since my last posting, not alot has happened i suppose.. for the most part, i'm trying my hardest to keep sane and not fall apart. on the outside i probably look sane and ok, but inside i feel like i'm seconds away from a complete melt down, why? only he knows. fortunately i'm going to TO in a week, and my birthday is in 5 days.. lets hope things end well, cus i really need it.

even though there isn't anything to fuss about, my heart and mind are never stable, always thinking about the million "what ifs". the "realist" part of me has kicked into high gear, and is saying, because things are at its all time best, its only time things will fall apart and be everything i don't want..

i feel like i'm walking on eggshells.. =(