all is fair in love & war

My title has nothing to do with what I'm about to say.. Or wait maybe it does, I guess.. Once again I find myself at wits end tryna figure out what the hell is going on.. If I'm missing something, or is something actually wrong.. I don't get why things have to be so complicated, why can't things jus be simple. I hate how I've gotta rip you apart before getting any type of answer.. Mostly I hate how no matter the amount of times you fucked up, I let you back in.. I just can't leave you alone.. I'm getting sick of fighting.. Fighting with you and fighting myself. What a shame.