ready to forget this ..

Listening to: Broken-Hearted Girl - Beyonce

i felt like i had so much to say but you never gave me the chance to even say ANYTHING, and when i'd try and reach out to you, you'd just shut me out. i'm not surprised with how things have turned out, and maybe thats why i'm not as upset with you, as i should be. to be honest i'm more upset with myself, i just don't get how no matter, how big of an asshole you have been, i can't find it inside of me to hate you with every part of my being.. cus at the end of the day you don't deserve me, or my love. i really shouldn't worry about you and make you a priority when its pretty obvious i'm not even a thought in your mind.

"something that I feel I need to say but untill now I've always been afraid, that you would never come around and still I wanna put this out. you say you got the most respect for me but sometimes I feel you're not deserved of me and still you're in my heart but you're the only one and yes, there are times when I hate you but I don't complain cus I've been afraid that you would walk away."