daily creepin.. found this one..

"when someone is in your life for a reason it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. they've come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. they may seem like a godsend and believe me they are. they are there for the reason you need them to be then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. sometimes they walk away, sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. what we must realize is that our need has been met our desire fulfilled, their work is done. the prayer you sent up has been answered and now it's time to move on."

i can't lie whats being said there hit hard, but at the same time the saying "EASIER SAID THEN DONE." comes to mind as well. i guess it depends on the person and the situation but moving on isn't always that easy. it could take a person 10 seconds after he/she have walked away or have been walked out on, or in other cases forever. with me.. i can't say forever, but still.. you hold a great part of my heart. has. always. still.

soo.. spending the entire day with my family (cait, ton and tin) having my heart to hearts with 2 of them made me realize how much i tend to hold back. in fear or atleast with major hesitation in having someone come back at me with "yea, but he..." in such a negative matter. sometimes i'd like to be heard and leave it as that. sometimes i jus wanna say my peacse and leave it as that but sometimes i can't, i know they mean well but i wouldn't mind jus have the chance to speak on what has happened, how i feel/felt, think/thought without getting judged or told otherwise that what i felt, thought, and even saw was all an illusion. sometimes i wish they'd see it through my eyes and not only from the outside. i guess thats whats made me appreciate my family that much more, no hesitation to speak my mind, and the fear of getting ridiculed for seeing/feeling the things i do. my family, is my world and i wouldn't have it any other way.

loli, we're gonna miss you this christmas....