this time i really did try to let you go, you even knew that but i can't.
its like opening a gift on your birthday not knowing what it really might be but assuming since you've been dropping crazy hints you'd be getting SOMETHING you were wishing for. quickly jumping at any opportunity to get to that one, not caring about any other gift you may receive.

finally the moment has come, the gift you've been dieing to have is right infront of you.. with all the emphasis you've put on that ONE gift the other ones just didn't matter, you had your hopes and dreams all put into that one and somehow from all of them that was the one that let you down the most. your expectations were too high, you expected perfection and in a blink of an eye your sense of utopia had just shattered into a million and one pieces, or atleast you think..

you were that gift but maybe it was my fault for putting such emphasis on you, for even opening it up too soon, when i wasn't quite ready or maybe putting all my hopes and dreams into you but at those moments it was what felt right to me, to my heart.. and to you (theres no denying it either!) i'm not sure if why i'm feeling like this is my fault, if this is normal or just simply obsessive, even after all the negativity and stress i could never see you any different. i shouldv'e known that my hopes and dreams had already come true just having you there with me; you were my gift and nothing or no one could ever compare.